Book contributions

[iburn]

yeah, im curious as well... i had forgotten about adding my poems in... so here they are if you are still taking them...


LOVER'S TILT

loving you is a secret, in which ive had to keep
to avoid the cause of pain that leave scars deep
i admire you in a way that from you ive had to hide
even lying to myself, my voice ive had to sacrifice

time has its way of creeping without looking back
leaving me behind, for better of the lack
ive gotten used to who i am around you
and now im left alone, in forgotten truth

your words of sweet spill on my heart of pain
your dancing eyes cover my body like rain
the torture of breathless emotion ive buried,
is starting to emerge, with all the guilt ive carried

fearful you will forever fade from my life
every chance i get to breathe is filled with fight
striving to erase these hindering thoughts of you
one can only forget for so long and the heart ensues

i need to break away but im seeking you out
i hate living with this need and afflictive doubt
shutting my eyes and reaching out
chancing my heart to breaking ground

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BAD TIMING

i heard from an old flame the other day
told me that he missed me so much
i remember when he didnt feel that way
he felt a different kind of love

i would have given it all up
packed up and moved
no matter how tough
but instead i was left alone and used

so i moved on to a love so true
always there to hold me in my time of need
he gave me all that you didnt want to
i knew he'd stay and wouldnt leave

now here you are, longing for me
telling me all i wish i could have heard
back when it was meant to be
now what you say are empty words

how did i get to where i am?
no one ever plans on being a mess
i'm losing at my own game
i have something to confess

i never believed you can love more than one
but here i am, feeling this guilt
afraid to leap, afraid to run
on the edge of a lover's tilt

my silent love for you has been hidden
for now he has given me his heart
telling you this is forbidden
telling him would tear him apart

so for now, i remain tired and confused
allow fate to make her choice
too afraid to make a change
too afraid to voice

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CONSUME

i think of you
your hair
your eyes

the way you smell
the way you smile

i have to touch you
feel your breath upon my neck
i have to breathe you
taste the essense of you

my therapist says im addicted
but a little bit of tea
isnt going to help me
i need intervention
someone to save me from you

and i want to be saved
but i want to be saved by you
and youre the one who's consuming me
youre the one that i need
your the fix ive been fixed on

so here i am, my life wrapped up in you
here i live, living only for you
a constant need to have you here with me
a constant battle ive been fighting

but i cant win
i have to give in
and let you see
all of this is me

ive just let go
im leaving it all behind
ill hold nothing back
till theres nothing left to find


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DANGEROUSLY

You came into my life without warning
And I let you.

You captured my gaze
And I let you.

Now you're strutten' around
And I feel like a clown
I've lost myself in you
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you

You took my heart without disclaimer
And I let you

You drag me around town like a dog
And I let you

You tell me what to do, what to wear
And I let you

There's nothing in between
The love you have for me
I can feel it in your touch
That you want me so much
And I can't find the way out
And I don't know if I want to
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you

I've risked it all just to have your touch
I've let everything go because I want you so much
Nothing else matters to me but you
And I don't know what to do
I can't find the way out
And I don't know if I want to
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you

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TO BE AS SHE

the night falls as if slain by the sun,
Slender beams of moonlight enter this darkened place
entwined are we.
The ethereal one wakens.

Night shrouds her brooding form, an eternal wrath.

Her ebon hair cascades over
pale and tragic shoulders, and her
full crimson lips part slightly, to taste the
soul streaming from the pale flesh beneath her.

Now a night of shared vitality, I remember her.

Around, the sinister creatures gather.
My dread grows as doom's scythe falls against my neck.
It slays me, and darkly my vitae drips
to the wicked earth that is my prison.
In numbness I call her name while Death's shadow surrounds me.
Now alone, my essence falls upon darkened eyes.

This is her love

the god for which i sacrifice myself
flares once, then dies, swallowed by madness.
all hope must not endure.

her soul thrives no more.
lost souls surround us,
crying, save us from ourselves.

always despairing, always lost,
frozen here, waiting.

Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom
as dust dances in the air,
forming an image in my mind,
sparing not my exposed soul.

Realization dawning on my face.

I raise my head, now defying
this oblivious reality.

[da Q]

If you are still accepting new materials......


Kiss Good-bye

Her body, naked, lies before me
soaking up ther rising morning sun
rolls over to her side,covering fragile eyes
not quite ready for morning to come....for her
her eyes flicker...open slowly
looks around, she doesn't know me
brings her hair up from out of her face
mind reeling trying to remember this place

She looks down at her nakedness
turns her back as she gets dressed
she shuts her eyes to stop from crying
sees the unmade bed as her innocence dying...again
she asks no names, wants no complications
her mind will fill in her romance-novel creations
Strangers meet, strangers lie
her kiss good morning is her kiss good-bye.



Small Town Eulogy

Says when she was younger she would dream
danced with angels, clouds beneath her feet
but prayers were never answered, dreams never met
and the heavens she once looked to, she'd just as soon forget.

She walks alone into the silence
staring at the dew-kissed ground
asked why she hangs her head so low
'cause thats where her dreams are found.

Says that mysteries and histories
are buried alive beneath her feet
people born, raised, and buried here
along side the dreams she'll never meet.

She had bright blue eyes wide open, when she was just a girl
bright blue eyes wide open, she was taking in the world
now she has to close her eyes to see those days again
now she has to close her eyes, the past her only friend.

[Exitilus]

*re-opened*

[phoenix]

sub #1
Broken hearted
Your heart beats slower,
love is gone,
your bodys sore,
No sleep has come.
You ly awake,
recalling the past,
your heart brakes,
love did not last.
Tears fill your eyes,
pain fills your heart,
you've said your goodbyes,
you just grew apart.
Your beds is so cold,
the house seems so empty,
you feel all alone,
even when there is company.
You walk around day to day,
memories fill your mind,
you hope someday someway,
the crying will subside.
Just keep hoping,
as time goes on,
just keep coping,
the pain will soon be gone.
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[Gilgar]

Good stuff folks and keep it coming if there is any more you wish to submit. Thank you for reopening these for us D.

[Survivor]

The Wish

Have you ever just wished you would die?
You wake up and wonder "Why even try?"
You know the day is going to be bad
Just like every other one you've had

Things just never seem to improve
You know you have nothing to prove
You get out of bed like every other day
Though you wish in bed you could stay

Things go wrong no matter what you try
You spend the whole day wanting to die
You can't kill yourself, you don't have the guts
You know you're just too much of a klutz

It'd be one more thing you didn't do right
You would probably live just to spite
That's the way your luck always goes
Why that is it seems nobody knows

But that's the life you're fated to live
Nobody ever wants to forget or forgive
All the things that you've done wrong
But then you've known that all along

Certain people you thought would understand
But they are the last ones to lend you a hand
They'll even kick you when you are down
They don't even notice your frown

You know one day your wish will come true
Your life will be over without much ado
Will anyone even care that your gone?
Probably not, you were just a pawn

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The World Today


This whole world has gone to hell
One look around and you can tell
Moral depravity is all around
Upstanding people can’t be found

At least not in the world that I know
That realization was quite a blow
Nobody really cares about you
They’ll stab you in the back with no ado

People pretend to be your friend
But they’ll disappear before the end
Reality is you can’t count on anyone
They’ll be gone when it’s said and done

You’ll be alone to face the fight
Something about that’s just not right
Maybe somehow you’ll make it through
Remember “To Thine Own Self Be True!”

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The Untitled Poem

Why is it no one can understand just why I feel so bad
Maybe its because they never lost everything they had
Its hard to try to make them see why I hate my life
I lost everything that I had even my kids and wife

Everyone just seems to think it shouldn't really matter
They just cant understand why my heart would shatter
I lost my wife and best friend of forty years or more
And just to top it off she proved she was a whore

She couldnt just leave me and go off on her own
She had to find another man just to set the tone
She made it clear that we were through never to be again
No matter how hard I tried there was no way to win

Every one tries to say "Just move on with your life"
Sorry it's not that easy when all I see is strife
I sit alone day after day nothing else to do
Everyone might just as well look and say "FUCK YOU"

One day soon it will all be done and I will be no more
All because my wife turned herself into a whore
Maybe then they'll understand just how bad I felt
I didn't want to play the cards that I was dealt

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